Musings of a Timid observer

The worst thing about operating from a "fear of failure" is that you can gain some traction, a modicum of success by all the traditional metrics-a steady income, a house, 2 obnoxious kids whose pictures you show to everyone at every party-but it leaves you wondering.."What if I hadn't been such a coward?Maybe I would be doing something fresh.Something that the world needs instead of just this paint by numbers shit. " That thing has a life. It feeds on your quiet moments. Feeds on the thoughts you try to push down as you make your way to work through an insane traffic jam with people all rushing to go to a place about 90% of them hate. Going to trade away their time for some cash, because that's what adults are supposed to do. And you're one of them. You post memes about the weekend and can't wait to get to the bar and get some sweet chemical relief in a bottle. Drowning out the sounds of your younger self judging you for not having the balls

If you grew up in Kampala, I'm sure you've been to Watoto Church's annual production called Heavens Gates and Hell's Flames(HGHF) . Most of the people my age, went to see the show back when the church was called Kampala Pentecostal Church and we were likely far too young for the imagery. For international readers, you may have seen this evangelistic play in one of your local churches.  The general premise is that there are ordinary people who die and either make it to the gates of heaven where Jesus welcomes them with open arms for having accepted him as their lord and Savior and those bastards that rejected him as farce, myth or , my favorite, were waiting  for the right time to give their lives to him, are banished to hell to be tortured for eternity.  Good wholesome family entertainment right there.  That's what you get for masturbating While it's easy to laugh at the obvious scare tactic and emotional manipulation such a product